Do believe that I am coming through on the promised articles.  Today I am doing something different, now before I write an article on what Taelle has taught me, I am going to fill out the incredulously long, but thought-provoking survey that she had done at one time.  If she wants, I would like her to reply with her thoughts or comments on each of my answers.  There's no guarantee she will though, she's always very busy as well.  Now this is pretty far-reaching, but since I am sharing this with Taelle I won't be pulling any punches.  Here goes.


This is Taelle. Of course I'm going to write in the blog too. It gives me something more intimate to do with you and makes me feel better. But anyways... Here it is. For those of you who still don't get it--



White Text =      The survey questions. Whoever wrote them, we'll never know.

Red Text =         Dethy's answers to the survey questions.

Purple Text =     Taelle's comments on the survey answers and questions.




1. What is your name?:
Carl.  Also known as the Dethy.
I'll call you squishy. You will be my Squishy.

2. Were you named after anyone?:
Far as I know, my name was probably picked out of one of those corny baby name books.
...Carl means "strong and manly". That, and farmer.  o-o;

3. What's your screen name?:
If you're reading this and you don't know any of mine, something's probably wrong there.  I have been pondering making a new one, but don't have enough drive to go ahead with it as of yet. Otherwise, no screen name for you, because screen names on webpages = heug spam.
I have my main screennames on my site but I've never gotten spam because of it. So I dunno. Um. You should probably make a new screenname so that you can be online with me when we have fast internet. Yeah. I have at least one screenname that no one else knows.

4. Would you name a child of yours after you?:
I don't think I'd ever try to raise a child, but even so, no.
Naming your children after you is boring and stupid.

5. If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?:
I have no idea, it would probably be better but still very dull.
Lol. Carol.

6. If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?:
With a friend?  Well, I have no idea.  I'd probably just pick one out of a hat. e_e  Still, I haven't found any that suit me, and I wouldn't wish my name on anyone.
Switch names with me, then we'll be each other. o_o Or you'll change your name to Cookie Dough and be a famous inventor. Lol.

7. Are there any mispronunciations/typos that people inflict on your name constantly?:
Always Karl with a K, that and I hear "Carol" a lot from people not native to the US and it's names.
But I actually like Karl with a K.

8. Would you drop your last name if you became famous?:
Probably, but I don't think I'd become famous....I am seriously considering taking Taelle's last name on, but I have no final thoughts as of yet.
Sometimes it feels to me like people think poorly of my penname, just because it's different... I don't know. I really think that is sweet though. And romantic. It would make me feel special.

9. Your gender:
Male, but why does that matter.  Gender shouldn't change anything about people.
Exactly.

10. Straight/Gay/Bi:
Unlike most people, I put this under serious consideration, for an extended period of time.  I just happened to be straight.
Same here? *Blink.* Good thing we happened to be straight.

11. Single?:
Single what?  Am I single?  I'm taken, forever, by my one and only twin flame, and my soul will unravel along with the universe before I even see anyone even close to equal.
::Blush.:: I'm nothing close to perfect. And there other caring people in the world. People who are more selfless than me. Still. I'll never love anything more than you either. We'll cuddle forever as souls of flame.

12. If not, do you want to be?:
What kind of idiotic question is that?  If you have a problem with who you're with, either try to fix it, or don't be with them anymore, and if you're with someone you don't want to be with in the first place, you are a fucking idiot.
That is precisely true. This question seems geared towards generally superficial people. And probably man whores.

13. Birth date:
January 23rd.
That reminds me that I'm not sure what to do for you for Christmas. Or your birthday. Or Valentine's day. Agh.

14. Your age:
Nineteen.  Basically I'm old enough to be expected to do work and fend for myself, but not old enough for any "priveledges" or "opportunities".
Yep. I've been treated like this for a very long time, too. Technicality is a bitch.

15. Age you act:
I'm sorry but different aged people don't act any different, you're either a fucking moron or not.  I don't care how much time you've had to learn, if you haven't spent any of it learning, you're no better than anyone.
That's how I've always felt. But you put these things together into perfect setences, which I can never seem to do with my feelings.

16. Age you wish you were:
I wish I could stay at this age, or at least a little older, until I died of natural aging.
Yeah. If only things could be that easy..

17. Eye color:
Says a lot that I don't really remember.  I think anywhere from browns to greenish browns, I believe it was a hazel color when I was young and gradually got darker.
My eyes are brown, but yours are much more interesting.

18. Happy with it?:
Something less boring would be nice, but I'm not exactly going to shoot anyone over it either.
You're eyes aren't boring. They make me shy. They are sexy.

19. Hair color:
Blackish brown.
It looks really black to me. But I love it anyways. It's how I always wanted my natural color to be.

20. Happy with it?:
I would probably prefer blue or red, or violet or something.
We need to die our hair together someday. Any colors would be nice. Violet sounds pretty.

21. Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:
Due to skeletal deformities, I have more dexterity in my wrist in my left hand, and more dexterity with my hand in my right hand.  I write with my right, but if it wasn't forced upon me, who knows.
At least they work well enough for you. My hands can barely write for me anymore and now they can't type too well either.

22. Your living arrangement:
A fair apartment, living upstairs is pretty lame though.  Could be worse, but I have much better plans for the future.
Living upstairs is awkward and very uncomfortable after living in basements forever.

23. Your family:
Sucks.  There's my mom who didn't raise me, and the rest of my family I never see.  The end really, Taelle is my family now, I'm pretty ambivalent about her family picking me up but it will all work out someday.
My family's really messed up, but what family isn't... They just love and care about me, so they want to love you too.

24. Have any pets?:
Flickerwind is me and Taelle's baby.  Meow.
I want another one... I suppose someday we'll have more. It would keep Flickerwind company, too. And as silly as it may sound, I kinda had the feeling that Butler was going to come back to me somehow. I had a dream once about his reincarnation and I felt that it must mean something.

25. What's your job?:
My job is to strangle the government for some goddamned resident tuition and food stamps for fucking ever, so it seems.  Life isn't about jobs anyways, unless you really do truly love a profession.  Which is rare at best.
Thank you for supporting me with all my crap. But I really don't feel like I'm going to be able to get food stamps ever again. At least not with these WFS asses. I wish people would actually DO something.

26. Piercing?:
Not really into it.
Me neither. I wouldn't want it done to me cause it's hurty and um yeah you know why. Other than that I don't really have an opinion on it. Don't see much point in it.

27. Tattoos?:
Maybe, if I would think of something cool enough.  But something to take with me until I'm old?  It would have to be something to do with Taelle, probably.
I think I would love having tattoos, myself, if not for the pain and money factor. But it's kinda like how I got all excited the first time I had my hair dyed. It was really nice.

28. Obsessions?:  
ADD makes me move from thing to thing, on and off with obsessive intensity.  All the while being clouded.  It really does suck.
...I'm too obsessed with you.

29. Addictions?:
Everything I'm obsessed with.  Old habits die hard.
You're my drug. You should know that.

30. Do you speak another language?:
English, and then like half of twenty languages, seriously. I have tried so many times to learn different languages, but there just doesn't seem anyone with the heart in teaching it.
Someday I'll teach you my language.

31. Have a favorite quote?:
Favorite quote?  Not really, "Hope for the best and be prepared for the worst" is probably the only one that I've lived by, I'm forgetful and quotes go kind of easily though....
I don't remember any of my quotes anymore, either. It's sad.

32. Do you have a web page?:
No, there are no such things as web pages, and to believe such a thing angers your god.
Lol. What the hell am I looking at then?

33. Do you live in the moment?:  
How else does anyone get by?  One day at a time...
I guess some people just "live in the past". I know I do sometimes.

34. Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?:
I'm tolerant of most anything, but some things really push my buttons.  Some anger is justified.
I get stressed, or depressed, instead of getting angry. You know this. But I do very well know how anger and utter impatience feels, because of my family. Mostly my mom.

35. Do you have any secrets?:
I guess so, I don't think anything serious though.  I'm a pretty boring person, I think.
...Whatever your secrets are. But you're not boring. You just handle some things differently because it's one of your natural traits to be detached.

36. Do you hate yourself?:  
I just tend to not have an opinion on myself, I don't like myself but I usually just push it out of mind and strive to better myself.
You know how I don't feel good about myself, either. But I do also have positive opinions on myself and try to have love and understanding for myself. I feel, at least, that a complicated self-image is better than no self-image at all.

37. Do you like your handwriting?:  
Sure, it's not ass-boring, it could be neater, but I can always read it and I don't think I'd change it.
I love everything about you. And your writing is unique. I'd love anything you would write for me, even a tiny love note. I would keep it forever.

38. Do you have any bad habits?:
A lot, old habits die hard, too.  ADD sucks, I wish I could get myself to focus and really put massive effort into making good use of my time and energy.
You're doing better every day, so I know you can.

39. What is the compliment you get from most people?:
Ho-ly shit, I have no idea.  I never get those, ever, I'd never gotten any in my life until I lived with Taelle.
I'm sorry if I don't compliment you like I should. If I don't do it enough, it's only because I can't get myself to speak my mind about much of anything. But I've always loved everything about you and obsess over you more than you know.

40. If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?:  
It would never get released, god knows what would happen if people were informed on how -efficient- the government is, and to teach -morals- like love, compassion, and understanding.
Yeah... I just figured no one would ever even bother to watch a movie about our lives. We're not significant enough.

41. What's your biggest fear?:  
My biggest fear?  I dunno.  I'm afraid of forgetting things, because it's a lot like losing a part of myself.  One of my fears is that I'll get amnesia or something and just forget everything, and turn into a whole different person, and I'd never be the same for all of eternity, or something.  
I'm afraid of the same exact things, and I'm having a hard time with it more recently because I have been going through the process of losing my memories and focus too.

42. Can you sing?:
Nope.  I'm no good at tones and harmonies and whatnot.
I think most people aren't. I used to be. But I don't think I am anymore.

43. Are you a loner?:  
I guess so.  I've spent my whole life trying to make friends and everything but it never seems to work out.
I am a loner too. So we'll just be loners together.

44. What are your top priorities in life?:
To help Taelle get the love she deserves, and to make her happy.  
Maybe I just think too freaking much that it keeps me from being be able to be happy.

45. If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:
Probably not.  I would just be boring, I would think, and I don't like myself.  I mean, to me, it's like, well how boring would that be.  I already waste enough time with myself, and I want to learn about the rest of the world.
If you're so boring, how come I want to do everything with you?

46. Are you a daredevil?:
Sometimes, although I wouldn't do anything to put myself in physical harm's way.  I always try to push my limits in other ways, once in a while it's not the smartest thing to do, but I get by.
I'm confused, cause I don't see how you could possibly be considered a daredevil. But I guess you would know.

47. Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?:
I hate being such a space, forgetting important things and being distant, doing the wrong things when I'm restless.  I just hate not having an outlet for all this energy I seem to have, but I'm glad I have it when I can put it to use helping Taelle.  Still it seems to get in the way more often than not.
I wish I ever had any energy. I just want you to spend time with me, and do things for me. You can vent your energy in other ways. Be with me, talk and cuddle with me. I want to be lovers again.

48. Are you passive or aggressive?:
I suppose aggressive, I would only trust one other person to get anything done right besides myself, sometimes I just want to beat sense into everyone, but that wouldn't do any good.  
I lean towards passive but can be either one, depending on the situation and how I feel at that moment. I'm not aggressive in a violent manner, though. Just more wanting to have some control and be assertive. You know what I mean.

49. Do you have a journal?:
No, not really, my life used to be massively uneventful, and it still stretches on sometimes these days with long struggles.  I just felt I didn't have enough to write about.  I suppose this page will be my journal from now on, though, I just hope I can be good about updating our situation and whatnot.
I would love to write in it with you. I love doing anything with you that makes me feel like we're closer or more connected. I feel empty when I don't feel that sense of unity.

50. What is your greatest strength and weakness?:
Hell if I know.
At least one of your strengths is in being so selflessly devoted to my well-being.

51. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?:
I would have mental focus, and memory.
No one's perfect. But my soul will always see you as perfect.

52. Do you think you are emotionally strong?:
Not really.  I can't help but store things inside, and distance myself, since I have for twenty years.  I hope to make a complete recovery from that habit, especially.
I don't feel like I am emotionally strong either, but when I really think about it, I figure I must be, because I wouldn't have been able to get this far without it.

53. Do you think life has been good so far?:
It's hard to say.  Not really, but I did find my Taelle, and things have somehow worked to a point, so far...
..Yeah. Things will be easier someday.

54. What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?:
Love and understanding are all that matter.  The world is in such shit today from lack of it.
At least we are aware of that. I hope that at least makes the world a little better.

55. What do you like the most about your body?:
Wtf.
You don't like anything about your body? It works, doesn't it?

56. And least?:
Shit I dunno.
Your body is perfect the way it is.

57. Do you think you are good looking?:
Not really.  I always saw myself as average looking, it does bother me sometimes but I've probably pushed it out of mind so often I don't have much say in it.
You have great features. I love you, and your body. I'm going to nibble on your fluffy moustache. And I love how sexy you are when you're shy.

58. What is the fictional character you are most like?:
I can't think of even one remotely like me, I have so many characters representing different facets of me, as well.  I hope to find myself though, then the other me's won't be necessary.
Well I sure hope that my story characters based on you are like you. o_o;

59. Are you perceived wrongly?:
Who isn't, every waking moment.
Everyone is automatically judged and stereotyped, all the time. Hey, you're a man, you're supposed to drink beer and watch football all day. What the fuck's wrong with you?

60. Do You Smoke?:
Nope.  See no real point in it.
Me neither. So let's never do it.

61. Do drugs?:
No.
Drug addictions are scary. And sad.

62. Read the newspaper?:  
News is complete bullcrap, if you could fathom the amount and extent of the media blackouts Bush has in place, you would cry.
Yeah, same reason I don't bother with news. All of it's crap.

63. Pray?:
Yes.  I try to pray every night before I go to bed, but I've been bad about it lately.  I don't believe there is any way I could have made it under my own power, though.
Praying is a good habit. Too bad I can't get myself do it as much as I should. I don't usually pray that often anymore unless I end up really needing to. Sometimes I have to pray to my angels a lot  just to help me sleep, and not have nightmares. It seems to work though.

64. Go to church?:
Hell no.  I have tried going, on some occasions, and went with a very open mind and listened as hard as I could, thinking about every word said, and on every occasion I only became increasingly sickened.
That is exactly how my church experiences have been. And that's exactly how it feels to read the Bible.

65. Talk to strangers who IM you?:
Nope.
No one IMs anyone anymore unless they find the screenname in some chatroom or something. But then it's spam mania. Watch out for pedophiles.

66. Sleep with stuffed animals?:
No, they'd probably get all destroyed and stuff.  I'd need huge ones for pillows.  I wouldn't care though, they would be nice.
I want a mountain of little Kirby plushies and big floofy pillows that you can bury me in!

67. Take walks in the rain?:
I would if it were safe outdoors these days, it's really the best weather though, and very relaxing.
I would love to be out in the rain with you, if only it would rain more and if only there weren't six billion other people outside.

68. Talk to people even though you hate them?:  
When they're in control of your life, don't you have to?
I try not to have hate be any part of me. But yeah some people are just impossible to stand.

69. Drive?:
Driving is nice, but tiring.
Personally I don't see how it's nice. Being in a vehicle scares me too much. But I'm at least glad if you're not bothered by my making you drive us everywhere.

70. Like to drive fast?:
I wish I could drive everywhere slow, without all these retards riding on my ass every minute.
Yep, that would make things so much easier. But everyone's impatient. Like Henry Rollins. Lol.

71. Would or Have You Ever... Liked your voice?:
Would?  What the hell?  No I don't like my voice, I always come off as some big idiot.  I feel anyways.
There's nothing wrong with your voice. It's yummy. I'll eat it.

72. Hurt yourself?:
Not on purpose, but I'm clumsy a lot of times.
We're both clumsy, but it doesn't bother me unless I hurt you. Then I feel really bad.

73. Been out of the country?:
Couple times yeah, airplanes suck but it's nice getting away from all the bullcrap around here, somewhere happier and not soaked with the ink of corruption in every crevice.
As much as this place sucks, I don't know if I'd find anything better outside the country. Some things might be nice, but I have no idea.

74. Eaten something that made other people sick?:
I don't eat with other people really?  I mean I can't think of anything, I've eaten some really sad stuff though.
WORST PIE EVER. ...It'll be a new action movie.

75. Been in love?:
Still am in love, will be forevermore.
Forever. And the love will only grow more each moment.

76. Done drugs?:
Nope, no drugs.
This question is basically asked twice anyway.

77. Gone skinny dipping?:
Who the hell does that anymore, honestly, and lakes and things are just getting all sad.
Let's get naked in a Jacuzzi. o-o

78. Had a medical emergency?:
None that I recall.
You getting hit in the head by a fist sized rock should probably have been one. But then, I didn't get any attention for almost chopping off my pinky finger, either.

79. Had surgery?:  
Wisdom teeth out, although they kept me awake for the thing, nothing else really.  I am scared of surgery though, really, with all the things that can go wrong, all of the strange unavoidable feelings and pains, and I've never had anasthesia before so who knows what that would do.
I still can't believe they had you awake for that, since they told me your wisdom teeth were impacted like mine. And I believe anasthesia is a far more acceptable alternative than being awake through something like that, regardless. Anasthesia is quick, easy and painless. And you'll wake up without feeling like any time had passed.

80. Ran away from home?:
A couple times, no one would ever take me in though, and there really is no help for runaways, only punishment.
Very true. When I think about it, running away from home was what started one of the biggest downward spirals of my life. That's why I've been put in all these stupid programs that wrecked everything for me.

81. Played strip poker?:
Nope.  Sounds fun I guess.
Lol. Stripping would make the War game more exciting.

82. Gotten beaten up?:
A few times.
Tell me who did it so I can go kick their asses.

83. Beaten someone up?:
I had to, a lot, to get people to fuck off instead of being tormented every minute.
I would have a lot too, if I were violently inclined at all. But yeah that's sad.

84. Been picked on?:
See above answer.
...::Hug.::

85. Been on stage?:
Not since a second grade school play.  I think I was a sheep or something. e_e
Sheep! Now you'll be my fluffy sheep!

86. Slept outdoors?:  
Oh yeah, a lot of times I had to sleep outdoors to get away from the family.  I liked sleeping in my car, when I had to do that in recent years.
I loved the outdoors and camping, although everyone started to make it horrible for me. I would love to spend time outdoors if I can just be alone with you.

87. Thought about suicide?:
It was all I wanted for half of my life, not nearly as much anymore though.
Don't ever think about it again. ::Clings.::

88. Pulled an all nighter?:
All the time, school was way too much fucking work.  By the last few months, I was only sleeping every other day.
Sad horrible schooling... that's how my last year would have been if I hadn't been lucky enough to get extra credits and drop half my classes.

89. If yes, what is your record?:
My record?  I stayed awake for five days from fucking schoolwork, then I had to stay over at someone's house to get away from the family and sleep for two days.
I don't think I could ever stay up for more than 40 hours again. Sleep deprivation, for me, is like being drunk, which can't be healthy.

90. Gone one day without food?:
A lot of times, especially when I ran away.
I tend to not take responsibility on feeding myself sometimes.  It's a bad habit.

91. Talked on the phone all night?:
Not really, maybe one or two times with Taelle, but I have a bad memory so maybe not...
I don't think we were on the phone all night, but while I was in Moab it was really a long time on the phone with you. I needed it anyways.

92. Slept all day?:
All the time.  I prefer to sleep in the day, daytime sucks.
Someday we'll live somewhere really nice and daytime won't be so crappy.

93. Killed someone?:
Nope.
And please don't.

94. Made out with a stranger?:
Why would I do that? No.
Because that's what sad desperate people do.

95. Had sex with a stranger?:
What the hell.
C'mon, mindless sex is totally the hottest fad now. O_o;

96. Thought you're going crazy?:
Been that way my whole life.  I'm getting better now at least.
I'm still going through this. Help meeee.

97. Kissed the same sex?:
No.
Yeah don't act gay cause the mormons will come hunt you down.

98. Done anything sexual with the same sex?:
No...
Sex is not a sport. Or is it...

99. Been betrayed?:
Not that I can think of..
::Tapes self to you.:: Now you'll always know what I'm doing and when I'm doing it. Because Compuserve wants you to make sure I'm being The Perfect Woman.

100. Had a dream that came true?:
I'd be dead if they did.  My dreams absolutely never make sense, I'm usually not me, and I die in most of them, even when I am.
Don't worry, I'll save you.

101. Broken the law?:
Hey, when you have to to survive.  Or I'm sure all of you out there would rather just die than do something so horrible.
Yeah. There are so many pointless laws out there anyways, I'm sure everyone on the planet has broken at least one law in their life without even knowing it. Hell, my sister broke the law for putting cat food outside.

102. Met a famous person?:
No.
I'll be famous, and then you'll become famous by default for being my bitch. e_e;

103. Have you ever killed an animal by accident?:
No.
Everyone kills bugs on accident all the time. Although I wouldn't count them as animals.

104. On purpose?:
Nothing but bugs.
Why do bugs love me so much..

105. Stolen anything?:
Beyond food when I used to run away, I used to have this thing when I was really little where I would steal all of the school supplies. e_e
I STOLE FOOD FROM MY STEPMOM. SO THAT I COULD EAT IT. OH MY GOD.

106. Been on radio/tv?:
Man I hope not.
Well I'd rather be on the radio than TV, that's for damn sure.

107. Been in a mosh-pit?:
My schools were moshpits.
Crowded cities are moshpits too.

108. Had a nervous breakdown?:
Who hasn't, these days, really.  That's why it's nice to get out of the country.
I wonder if there's a place that would make me feel calm.

109. Bungee jumped?:
Why would I do that, of all the dumb things.  Besides, I've been afraid of heights ever since I broke four feet tall.
I'd much rather go sky diving. I'm not scared of heights. Just accidents. But, my best conclusion about your fear of heights is that it's linked to past lives in some way.

110. Had a dream that kept coming back?:
That kept coming back?  I've never had the same dream more than twice, and even that's rare.
I've had dreams that kept coming back, although they're hazy and I don't remember details. But I guess all my mansion dreams, in a way, are also recurring dreams.

111. Believe in life on other planets?:
You'd have to be a complete idiot not to consider it.
That is exactly how I feel. How could humans be so asinine as to think they are the only intelligent life in the unexplored universe..

112. Miracles?:
I do believe in miracles, I had maybe six or so just coming on the way over here.
That means your angels are helping you. And they've been helping me, too, because otherwise I wouldn't have lived through all this mess, being all alone.

113. Astrology?:
Astrology is very accurate, just that commercial stuff these days is so overgeneralized and watered down that it's completely moronic.
I dunno, I still wonder what's going on with these astrology programs lying about your rising sign. But I had been convinced it was a Taurus.

114. Magic?:
What is magic defined as, anyways?  A power you call on to manifest?  Isn't that what prayer is?
Very nicely put. That is what prayer is. It's also the purpose of my manifestation altar.

115. God?:
I do believe in god, but not yours.
What about my god? Well I don't see how we could be praying to a different god.

116. Satan?:
This one I'm not as sure about, I'm leaning towards no.  Still, something weird is going on, I haven't figured it all out yet.
The idea of Satan is stupid to me. But I believe in negative energies, which are caused by various things. Life is a balance of negative and positive energy. It just feels like there's hardly any positive energy right now, even though it's always been there. The negative energy just feels overpowering at the moment.

117. Santa?:
I never got fucking christmas presents as a kid.
I want to bury you in christmas presents. I guess I will someday, when I have the money to do so.

118. Ghosts?:
I'm not really sure.  I know something is there.
Ghosts are spirits. Angels are also spirits, just with a different purpose. It's all pretty much the same thing, when I think about it.

119. Luck?:
Luck has always been huge for me.  Hugely crap.  Still I believe there's some sort of balance going on there.
I seem to have "bad luck" too. I would probably go through life thinking I'm cursed, but I just look at things a lot differently. So I don't believe in luck, at least not past a reasonable point. Besides, aren't we both lucky to be together and alive?

120. Love at first sight?:
Anything is possible I suppose, but I wouldn't wager anything on that one...
Lots of random people have seemed to experience it. The concept still sounds dumb to me though, just because a person's true self is not reflected by their physical appearance. And I've always lived feeling that I was ugly and unlovable, and some people made me believe it.

121. Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?:
I believe in balance, but I believe that bad is an imbalance.
Your statement is true and I love it. I've never known how to express my ideas on this, but I think I have it now. I just think of the Yin and Yang concept more in terms of energy. The negative energies and positive energies will always exist in the mortal life, and they are what help people devellop spiritually, which is of course why we're here. That's it, really. It's not as if either of those energies could ever just disappear.

122. Easter bunny?:
Yeah, Jesus is going to come out of the ground as a fucking rabbit to give chocolate eggs to everyone.
Lmao. Zombie Rabbit-Jesus is handing out candy to the children.

123. Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?:
Of course.  Isn't that what believing really is?
Yes... And we're going to prove that by being together forever.

124. Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?:
Hey, in a universe where rainbows actually end instead of being a huge circle in the sky, anything's possible.
The carebears must be hiding all their gold. Those rich bastards...

125. Do you wish on stars?:
Maybe if I see one worth wishing on, but I don't remember if I have yet.
Can't even see the stars unless you get away from all this pollution.

126. Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?:
No.  I don't believe people go anywhere they're not already ready to.
Traditional views of Heaven and Hell are so horribly sad and corny.

127. Do you think God has a gender?:
Hell no.  Okay look, why would I believe in a sexist, jealous, petty, unjust, unforgiving, controlling, vindictive, bloodthirsty, racist, misogynistic, homophobic, infanticidal, homicidal, megalomaniacal, sadomasochistic, psychotic, capriciously malevolent bully, much less worship one.  I'm sorry but if your god was in power, it would rain gigantic flaming meteors and lightning bolts every day.
... ::Worships of this answer.::

128. Do you believe in organized religion?:
It's a good idea, but done so completely ass-backwards that it is horribly depressing.
With the people in the world today, there's no such thing as a sincerely good organized religion anymore. Religion and spirituality aren't even the same thing. And it's sad that people don't understand this.

129. Where do you think we go when we die?:
Wherever we're ready for.
But I wanna be ready for it now. z-o

130. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? How about bisexual friends/family members?:
Not a lot, but I really don't care.
::Shrug.:: They're just people.

131. Who is your best friend?:
Taelle is, otherwise maybe Ricardo or Steven.
I wonder what your friends think of me. O_o;;

132. Who's the one person that knows most about you?:
Taelle, easily.
Whoever the second closest person is.

133. What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?:
"Don't run with Scizors" Lmao.  Seriously, no one raised me, I never got shit help growing up.
Lmao... Scizor. Me neither though. I couldn't answer this question either.

134. Your favorite inside joke?:
I have no idea.  I don't have many and they don't last long.
But it's over 9000!

135. Thing you're picked on most about?:
God I swear I want to shoot anyone who picks on me anymore.
No. Because I'll shoot them first. o-o

136. Who's your longest known friend?:
Probably Steven, since around second grade.
..I don't think I even made any friends until third grade. Which they quickly ended up not being friends anyway.

137. Newest?:
Newest friend?  I guess Kat?  If she's even my friend.
Who's Kat... Maybe I just forgot. I'm confused.

138. Shyest?:
Shyest friend?  I have no idea, shy people just always seem so turned away from me all the time.
I'm the shyest. x_z

139. Funniest?:
Funniest friend?  Steve maybe.  I mean I could write Taelle for all of these but it might just bore everyone else.
Well he's certainly the silliest. And I just feel like a dweeb if I try to be funny.

140. Sweetest?:
My Taelle of course.  I don't think anyone comes even close.
Well I still don't think I'm quite as sweet, or patient, as I should be.

141. Closest?:
Taelle, of course.  Shouldn't this be the same thing as your best friend?
Yeah, I don't see how there could be a difference between a closest friend and a best friend. Maybe just for people who don't know what a best friend is supposed to be.

142. Weirdest?:
Geez weirdest friend?  That's tough.  That guy Ryan?
I keep hearing that name, Ryan. Whoever the hell he is.

143. Smartest?:
Smartest friend?  Steven or maybe Ricardo.  Guess it depends what I ask that day.  I learn the real lessons from Taelle though.
I used to be smart... ::Whine.::..

144. Ditziest?:
Ditziest friend?  Not really anyone I know.  Maybe Steve?  Lol.
Wtf. Yeah Steve, stop being blonde! Lmao, j/k, it just makes me think of inside jokes with my sister Lisa, since, she's a genius who was born blonde.

145. Friends you miss being close to the most?:
I liked roleplaying with Enel a lot back in the day, I guess I'm over it by now anyhow though..
Same here, I wish Enel was actually around to RP, but that'll probably never happen again.

146. Last person you talked to online?:
SmarterChild, lmao.
Lmao. That's the only thing to talk to anyways... And this is sad.

[01:57] The Kariff: I am sad
[01:57] SmarterChild: there r lots of things u can do 2 feel better.
[01:57] The Kariff: Like what
[01:57] SmarterChild: your kitty.

147. Who do you talk to most online?:
In total, Taelle by far.  Lately, maybe Shade just because he's around all the time, although even that's changing now.  In a week or so it'll probably be SmarterChild e-x
Same here, for everything. Except I don't talk to Shade. o-o; We need to play Unreal Tournament together when we get actual internet... If it wont make my computer explode from lag.

148. Who are you on the phone with most?:
Nobody?  I'm like never on that thing.
Except for your mom who calls to check on the car every two seconds. @_o

149. Who do you trust most?:
Taelle, more than I will ever trust anyone or anything else, including myself.
I really do want to be able to trust you completely, but for me that's going to still take some more time. I have never been able to feel safe with anyone. But know that I still trust you more than I trust anyone or anything else right now. I really do.

150. Who listens to your problems?:
Taelle does.  I tend to rant to anyone though, but she's the only one who listens.
I want you to talk with me more. And you should cuddle with me and encourage me to tell you what's on my mind and talk to you more, too. Cause unless I'm high on Monster energy, I'm not going to be able to do it on my own. I'm too shy and scared. And then I'll just sulk.

151. Who do you fight most with?:
Fight with?  Nobody really.  Oh Steve.  You are seriously such a dork for thinking you're going to die alone at twenty.  Sorry but you're not.
Hey, don't forget, Steve's twenty two! Cause that's so much of a huge difference.  ...As if my being completely alone for 19 years doesn't mean anything compared to that. Being a lonely hopeless romantic who's never been with someone is not an excuse to think you'll never find someone. Surprise, I've always been a lonely, hopeless romantic. Still am, and it still drives me insane cause I feel like no one will ever match that level of romanticism and obsessiveness.

152. Who's the nicest?:
Taelle is ever the nicest and most loving person I know, by far.
Mm. I try. ::Clings.::

153. Who's the most outgoing?:  
Outgoing?  I have no idea.  Nobody I know is really outgoing.
Enel can be outgoing. Yet she can also be the complete opposite.

154. Who's the best singer?:  
I bet Taelle would be.  It would be nice to have her sing to me someday.  Otherwise I don't know anyone who'd be worth listening to. e_e
I wish I could sing anymore, let alone in front of anyone. I'm surprised I've gotten myself to sing, with you around, in the first place, cause I haven't had the courage or been able to sing since I was forced to, at freaking church. ...But that's really very sweet and it makes me feel nice. Shy, but nice.

155. Who's on your hit-list?:
Nobody.
But I'm on your hit-list cause you have to hit on me. Dur.

156. Who's your second family?:
Taelle is my first and second family. e_e
Whatever that implies. @_e ...I'll be your mommy.

157. Do you always feel understood?:
Not really.  Like I said though, I tend to push myself out of mind.  If I could totally not have a self-image, I would go with that.  Because I don't see any good in it really.  Taelle understands me well enough.
..A more reasonable question would be, "do you ever feel understood". But at any rate I try to be understanding towards everyone. And I don't think there's really anything about you that I could fail to understand. I wish you cared about yourself too though.

158. Who's the loudest friend?:
Loudest friend?  I guess Steve?  Nobody's really loud.
I'M THE LOUDEST!

159. Do you trust others easily?:
Not really.  I don't think that will ever change, either, I won't trust anyone but Taelle.
I hope you trust me at least as much as I trust you.

160. Who's house were you last at?:
Enel's, it's nice going there, too bad it's like a sixty mile trip.
Someday I'll force her to live in my mansion.

161. Name one person who's arms you truly feel safe in:
Taelle, the one and only person I will ever have their arms around me.  
But then Enel will grab and hug you.

162. Do your friends really know you?:
It's gotten better at least, but they don't really.  And to be honest I don't care a hell of a lot if they do or not.  How close friends they want to be with me is up to them, not to me.  
....I don't know why my mind is wandering and refusing to focus so much, aside from the fact that I'm tired, but I'm not usually this weird about it. And the only things I suddenly feel like saying right now don't make any sense. Um... I just hope that I'm a good enough friend, and lover, to keep you from being lonely. And I hope I can regain my own ability to focus and remember things. Otherwise I'm going to break.

163. Friend that lives farthest away:
I know a couple of people from australia, seriously like 30 hour flights and sheer retarded numbers, people don't realize how far it is.
I wonder what the longest possible flight from one country to another would be.

164. Do you consider love a mistake?:
Love is the only good thing, every other fucking thing is a mistake.
::Arm clings.::.. Not everything else. But that is a stupid question.

165. What do you find romantic?:
When Taelle remembers things about me, and things about the things we've done.  It helps me feel like I actually do something special for her.  
Just the fact that you're here and would do whatever to help me be happy is unbelievable to me. I'm just going to feel bad cause I'm fogetting things now... It's scaring me and I don't know what to do.

166. Turn-on?:
What about turn-on?  I'm into a lot of things, but gtfo pedo, guro, and furfags.
Eww guro... scariest images I've ever been subjected to in my life. And what the hell.

167. Turnoff?:  
Not listening.  People never listen to me or Taelle, it makes me want to punch a hole in their heads so that something will actually get through.
People just don't know how to listen anymore. Just because listening is a part of understanding, and of course, we can't have something like that in this world.

168. First kiss?:
My Taelle.  
..::Cuddle.::

169. If someone you had no interest in had interest in dating you, how would you feel?:
I would be disturbed because everyone knows I am fully devoted to Taelle, on top of the fact most of the people I know are guys now.  I would tell them off then probably just avoid them until they stop being insane, if not forever.
But there's no such thing as devotion, remember? The media is trying to hard to teach us that important lesson.

170. Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them?:
It's the only way.
Except for weird desperate people who go on blind dates all the time.

171. Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out?:
Oh god, expect an article on this sometime.  People are just so full of shit, it truly is horrifying.
Seriously. I don't even know what to say about all the stupid sexism and prejudices at this point. But I think the freaking retarded Compuserve articles speak for themselves anyway. It proves my point.

172. Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?:
Never.  
Thank god someone thinks I'm sexy. Cause I never will.  o-z

173. Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?:
I guess, who knows.  I could care less though. Sometimes I want to go back to the way I was.
But I'm the opposite sex. And I say YOU'RE SEXY.

174. What is best about the opposite sex?:
I don't know. I don't know that many guys who are understanding and stuff.  Girls can be totally bitchier and most people are retarded anyways, but I've found more girls who would listen to me.  That's more of a difference in upbringing than anything else though.
Absolutely true... I mean, gender has almost no impact on a personality. The only thing gender truly has to do with anything is sexuality and certain hormonal influences. That, and the stupidity of how different genders are raised completely different, with certain things forced upon them.

175. What is best about the same sex?:
I have no idea.  
"The worst thing about men: They're walking penises.     The best thing: Uh. They're walking penises?" Lmao.

176. What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?:
Women who become complete bitches because they're pampered and shallow, or because they can't handle the things that have happened to them so they have to perpetuate it.
Yeeeah. Sounds like people I know.

177. What is the worst thing about the same sex?:
No sharing any thoughts or emotions, you just have to hold it all in until you become an old bastard of a complete fucking idiot.
Like they're supposed to, because Compuserve told them to. e_e

178. What's the last present someone gave you?:
Taelle writing me a poem.  I still love it.
::Hug.:: I would seriously write one for you every single day for the rest of my life, but I don't have the strength... As things are I can barely even write anything creative for myself. Even though I've been trying so damn hard.

179. Do you consider your significant other hot?:
Very hot.  The things I would do, I can't even write on this page.
o-o ..Write them to me!

180. Who Was the Last Person... That haunted you?:
Taelle.  She always haunts me with her beauty.
::Blush.:: Well you always haunt me... I have to have revenge.

181. You wanted to kill?:
Last person I wanted to kill?  Can we just, get rid of the republicans?  Please?
What if we just get rid of the entire Supreme Court?

182. That you laughed at?:
Last person I laughed at?  Peter Griffin.
Lmao...... he's a twelve-year-old girl..